16 May 2026
Nonsense saturday 0
I have some problems. One of them is the amount of free time i spend alone. Combined with lack of sleep, i have a bunch of nonsense i came up with and now it will be your problem as you read this.
So i've been watching quite a bit of videos, basically disproving some popular stories that some people believe are true. Think something like aliens, ghosts, government secrets no one is supposed to know, things like those. At some point the author (which i'll keep unnamed) says that some people do that to get attention, which made me think a bit.
Sometimes i want to believe that there's something in the world. Something that is completely unknown and yet can change the regular life. Something like aliens, god(s) or something otherwise mystical. Some of those things may be real. I believe that it is possible for other intelligent life to exist somewhere but not that they're here already. I am ready to accept that there are "gods" that started our simulation, if it is a simulation, but even so, it doesn't change our life on basically any level, even if those "gods" look at us. Quantum physics, or other highly advanced kinds of physics can be thought of as being "magical" and are worth studying, but discoveries are so hard to make that i will not dare to even try at this point. None of those things will actually solve the actual problem that i have right now. It is boredom. It is probably weird that i want to "find god" not because i want to know the meaning of my life or other common religious reason, but because i am tired of how our world works and just want some variety, but that's what you get under the "Nonsense" title.
Boredom is not something unique, everyone gets bored. However, it would be interesting to see if other people have similar response to it. So i'll try to tell you what i think about it, and maybe then i'll try to make a poll on that.
"Bad thing"
Essentially, at some points i want to believe something, which is a lie because of boredom. And in the context i gave you earlier, where lies made to seek attention actually spread out as something real and had actual victims, i think it's natural to think that i should try to not do that. (Please don't stop reading on this paragraph. You got here anyway, please go on for a bit longer.) Maybe all of those lies must be shared very carefully. Or not at all. Because once they're told in the wrong context, they may become dangerous. And if you share it "responsibly", you can't be sure about the next person.
However, a lot of works of art, most notably books and films, are fiction. They tell a story that happens in another world. To write those stories is no different from telling a lie, in some way. And i realised a rather simple thing, can't believe i did it just now. The solution to my boredom is not a new exciting project or piece of hardware. It is in other worlds, worlds that don't exist, that have rules different from our world's rules yet similar enough for stories to make sense to us.
More about creativity
So, there are 2 things i want to change about my life. (Or rather 2 more things.) I want to find more of big imaginary worlds. Books, shows, things like those are a common way to deal with boredom that i've been ignoring my whole life and only now i realize, i want it, or maybe even need it. Another thing is that i want to try creating my own worlds. It sounds rather ambitious, especially for a person who never really interacted with a work of fiction that much, but what am i going to lose by trying?
In fact, i'm not losing anything and most likely even gaining a lot here. Reading works of fiction can teach me to be a more interesting person, which i need, and give me examples. Making bad fiction is... Well, it happens and there's nothing to do about it except for doing it anyway and moving on. You learn by doing things. I would say this is not an exception.
If this article (it's a strong word, i know) does anything, it confirms that i have thought that i can put in text and then show it to the world. I can say that the first step towards creating stories is made. Even if i won't create anything significant, anything worth remembering and won't make any money or fame by writing, it is fine, as long as it solves the boredom that i started with, and i think it will.
Technical stuff
I want to work on the site a bit shortly. I think a feedback section would be useful. I want to have a more social place than what i have now. I hope to find other similar site owners to maybe link to each other, i heard people have done that in the past.
I really did get stuck in electronics, i need to get out of here.